Shake it off, Let it go, Be strong, Move on

Nothing is something and I am a something! :)

2010-06-20T14:33:00.006+08:00

I AM BACK! :)

Oh well... As you can see from my tweets and my facebook status, I've been living a great life in Melbourne. Thanks for all your cares, your worries, and your prayers!Just one thing I wish for is that Melbourne should have snow. It would be awesome for me to experience snow in another country. Good to know that I actually like winter. I love the cold anyway. Now, it's like natural air conditioning to me. Loving it! Yeah...

If you guys are gonna ask me how is my life,
I can tell you that it's good. Just a little bored and bored and bored. hahaha.. Oh well... I've got a new GOOD habit which is reading. I've been reading lately. After such a long time of not exercising my eyes and my brains, My brain says: "I AM BACK."

I've finished Mitch Albom's lovely book, Have A Little Faith. (Thanks Melissa Teoh for buying that for me as my farewell present!) He did it again. I think it's a truly amazing book but I do prefer his previous work. Not that this has no power in it. It's just that, I think I've understand that everyone needs to have faith to live and we should be or are using it unconsciously. I know I have and I'm still doing it every single moment of my life. Like I've said in my older blogs, we always need to live in the moment and that's what matters. You will never regret and will be happy most of the times.

I put most of the times because I can't deny the fact that sometimes we will be sad, we have our ups and downs. I still do. There was one day, when I was just missing Malaysian Food and Friends and Family, that I've got a sudden breakdown that I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night and I started hitting the wall in my room furiously.* Just a reminder: I do not do that often. So do not worry people. It's just when people really pisses me off and I just need to let go sometimes. I know it's not a good thing to do and YES, I'm still a human. I'm still changing. I must say that the "hitting myself progress" has been well. I used to hit myself alot last time but it was a secret. The fact that I'm putting it up in my blog is for you to know and update you and I want to be as honest and clear as I can be.*
Anyway, I've calmed myself down and ALL SMILES again! :))

Right now, I'm just sitting outside my uni's cafe and using their internet!
A phrase saying: " When you have free stuff, why decline? Just use it while you can and make the best out of it!" I probably just created that phrase myself. hahaha.. Oh well.. That's me bullshiting!

Today, I was pretty excited because it's my first show in Melbourne and it was a good run! Woohoo...

There you go with the facebook link:
http://www.facebook.com/#!/event.php?eid=121923977841159&index=1

The problem is blogging is when I do not know when to end my blog and maybe this is the right time to do! So...see ya again....I shall I say...SOON!!!

Semper Fedelis JayTee

Re-energize~

2010-06-18T23:40:00.002+08:00

Alright!
I'm back peeps!!! I guess no one is nosey around my blog anymore!! hahaha...
I think I need to do some publicity again! hahaha.. :)

I'll be back!! See ya soon!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Inspiring words when you are down

2010-03-27T20:41:00.003+08:00

Hi hi!!

How are you guys doing??
Just another 2 weeks, I'll be having my own internet!! I can't wait... woohoo...

Just a short inspirational paragraph for you guys!

God loves you for who you are no matter what you have been through, even when you feel dirtiest.
God still cares for you and He wants to love you even more if you are willing to open your heart to Him and accept Him.
God is more than willing to wash you clean each and everyday and that you'll be changed, though, as humans, we are still not perfect. But God doesn't want a perfect you, He wants to slowly help you and show you and love you day by day.
God Loves You!

Have a good night,fellas!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

MELBOURNE!

2010-03-13T19:14:00.004+08:00

Greetings from Melbourne, Australia!! :)) hahaha...

This is a park really near to my crib!! NICE!! LOVING IT!!

After such a long time, I think I really need to update my blog.. :PP
Finally I've settled down nicely and I'm loving this place!!

God has been tremendously great in my life. I'm so blessed by His love and His people around me. He sent many people to help me and get familiarized with this place and it's such a blessings to be in His presence everyday!

My uni is GREAT! I'm loving it each and everyday. I've got lecturers who designed SUPERMAN's movie before and big blockbusters, who managed the commonwealth games' in Australia, who went touring all around the world... It's such a blessing to get them to teach me! :))

Currently, I do not have internet at home and I'm applying one! woohoo... can't wait to get it actually. I didn't know I'm such a internet freak who needs internet for 24/7. It's like the air I breathe. Luckily, I'm under Melbourne Uni, which means I can access to their internet and guess what, Melbourne Uni's Business building is just next to my apartment...So... hahahaha... I just sit outside of my house and surf the net... Enjoying the wind and the breeze... The sound of the trams passing by and drunk people talking...hahaha... :PPP

Alright... My assignments are also coming up really fast.. and I've been a really good student! I've finished all my assignments except for those group works... hahaha...which needs plenty of incubation period and brainstorms and discussions!! :)))

Have a great weekend peeps!!!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

JINXXX

2010-01-30T00:55:00.003+08:00

Today is my last day of work!!!!
YEAH!!!!!!!!

But.....
Guess what.....

Enjoy the video. :P

After that...
We have some cleaning to do.
For those who do not know what to do with WET CARPET.... Try this... It helps a little bit...

The iron works better.
Hair dryer... USELESS!!! Don't even dry a single thing except your hair on your legs... :)

I Hope You Enjoyed The Video!!!
*Another 2 weeks to Melbourne... Nervous.... Opppsss... Nak Pang Sai...

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JayTee

Artistic Shots

2010-01-27T14:24:00.004+08:00

I might not be a good photographer. But I want to be one. :)

Trying out some good shots.
All the photographs are taken in Hilton Hotel Kuala Lumpur.

Please do feel free to give me some comments! :D

Lounge Area

Grand Ballroom

Glasses

Hanging Lights

Private Lounge Area - Restricted

Coffee Cream

Lounge Decorations - Glass Pebbles

White Wine + Ice

Thanks!

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JayTee

Lang Hua YI Duo Duo

2010-01-14T00:02:00.001+08:00

Wanna hear me sing CHINESE?? hahahaha...
Check it out! ;P

thank you.

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JayTee

NEEDS OR WANTS??? the choice is in your hands

2010-01-13T23:49:00.005+08:00

Human Beings!!!

Sometimes we do not know how to differentiate things that we NEED and things that WANT.

And one of those human being in this planet is

ME.I'm gonna stop buying and start saving for my future.
:D
AMEN!

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JayTee

Welcome 2010! Cheers! :D

2009-12-31T11:40:00.005+08:00

Hi peeps again,I'm back to type off my last write - out for this year!
I just can't believe it that 2009 is ending. So fast. I just couldn't feel that speed. It's like we are all in a dream and we just woke up by a pinch.

OUCH!It's the new year!

Somehow, finally, falling off from the bed, I just realized that 2010 is coming within a few hours. And all should know that time will not wait for men.
Time is so precious that if you miss a step you can never go back to mend your wrong doings. We need to be alert at all times, not to just do the right thing but mean it with all your heart, all your soul and all your mind.
No worries, when you realized, you need to quickly pace your steps and move on!

I think 2009 has been a pretty good year for me.

Thank you, 2009.

Thank you all who have been upholding me in my studies, my work, my health, my life and my all.

Thank you!

I know that part of me, I've became stronger, a little more intelligent, a little more caring and probably more observant to the people around me.
I came out from that little hole of mine and took that small little step of faith to see how the world really looks like. Truth is that the world is UGLY by itself. But... UGLY in a uniquely awesome way...
(Mixture of so many different types of candies, chocolates, colours and smell.)

I'm inspired by this Author, Mitch Albom. He writes off such great articles and books that are real and reflects life. Tuesday with Morrie is one of my favourite. And this story which I'm going to reveal in another few sentences are somewhat related to life and that book itself.

As I've said, Time flies. I'm all grown up. I can say that, i guess... ;P
A few days back, My parents and I visited a very old teacher who has impacted my life in a tremendous way.

She is already 80 years old today. I was so fearful to even listen to her name last time during my childhood. She might be really stern, prim and proper but her heart is good. Every night as I closed my eyes to sleep during my younger days, I might get nightmares of her. She is my English teacher, my kindergarden headmistress. I can still remember her piles of homework that she bestowed unto me. It's funny to have feelings like that towards her before.

Despite all, I love her. I respect and I admire her.

As I've written, she is already 80 years old. She is already not young at all. She went through operations and had many health problems. She is still human. She does complain about all these problems her body are giving her. Guess what, she's still looking forward each and everyday to see how the Lord can bless her with. All she ever want at this age is friendship, companionship. She kept reminding me these.

"Joyce, you need to live your life. You need to enjoy it. You need to know what you're doing about it and not dump it into the deep blue sea. Be happy with what you have and continue to bless people. Look at me. I might be old. I can't really walk. But, if i ever get the chance to do that again, I would go all around and experience the world. Taste the world. Smell the world. Most importantly, Live! Be grateful. Somewhat in life, we will go through all sort of things. I've been through so many things, so much more than you. I know a lot of things and I'm really happy for you. I'm glad to see you here."
When she said these, she almost made me tear. My heart was grabbing my bones. It made me shiver.

"You know, when you're 80, you look at things differently. You don't care much about what the world is doing anymore. The only thing that's running in your head is your loved ones, friends and family. You wish everybody will be there with you, accompanying you everyday. I will spend my days to share all that I've been through before and let these words of wisdom and experience live in their hearts. I'll be content. Sometimes, I do ask God, why do you still keep me here? I don't think I'm that useful anymore. Well, you wouldn't know what God wants you to do the next moment or how He would bless you the next day. Everyday, I can't wait to get up and spend my time with Him. You think I read a lot. But every time you reread the passage, the story, it tells of different things. It touches you in an extraordinary way. So, Joyce... You need to continue to experience Him and do not let Him go. When you go out there, you will know that He is real."
A heart like me, would definitely run to a corner and blast my tears... I was grabbing my pants, telling myself not to weep.

Basically, that was what happened in her place. I got a feeling that that was my last day with her. The next time I see her, it would be in heaven. :)

I will accept 2010 and hope that it will be a great year and it will be definitely challenging year for me as I'll be alone in a foreign land. I know I have friends there. But, my family is here.

Alright!

I want to wish all of youHAPPY BLESSED NEW YEAR

filled with new rays of hope, joy, peace, and love.
:) :) :) :) :)

I Heart All Of You!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

New Year's around the corner

2009-12-29T12:46:00.009+08:00

Hey peeps,

It has been a pretty long time since the last blog. While as you know, it's the end of the season, end of the year, all the buses and trains are all over the place, honking the town again. Season of joy, season of love, season of happiness, season of sorrows, all different types of emotions creep into one's heart.
Mixed feelings.

Me? I was dumbfounded. Looking back, walking down those memory lanes, I see moments of joy, moments of sadness, moments of tension, as though everything was a movie but of course, without an ending. I can't believe that I've been growing old, as in physically. Mentally and emotionally, probably, I'm still a kid, enjoying life like a box of chocolates. :)

Besides accepting the fact that I've graduated and earned a diploma in Performing Arts. It's no big deal actually because in this world now, who sees diploma certs? I know of friends who love to study and getting masters and PhDs. It's like their life are all about knowledge, books and coffee.
hahaha... sorry, bookworms!

As far as I know, I'm really a kid and hopefully i will be a teenager soon and get my own life in this world. People might think I'm very independent and smart. The real and ugly truth is that I'm not. I count on and cling on my mommy a lot. From next year onwards, which is in another few days, I'll keep telling myself to stand on my own two feet and walk like a real man! It's tough but I got to do it because...

Well, this is another phase of my life story.
hahaha.. Some people might already know this news. I've been accepted to Australia, Melbourne. Going to VCA, under University Of Melbourne for 3 years, taking a degree in Productions. :) It's good news of great joy.
But, all these heart-warmth memories I'm leaving behind definitely make me tear every night and wet my pillow. No matter what, Malaysian friends will always be close in my heart and I'll never forget you guys and gals. I'll be leaving to Australia in end of February.

There goes my transformation period. Kid becoming a Teenager. Definitely lots of exciting stories to tell and fill you guys up with the juiciest gossips! :)

Come back to reality. Life is not always a bed of roses You can't always get what you want in life right?

Love.

It's up to you to guess whether I'm in love before or not. I may be typing this out of experience or may it be a fraction of my imagination. Isn't it just like love. When you love someone and yet you cannot get the person that you love. All you can ever do is dream that the person will be with you and love you back. Looking from afar, it's heartbreaking, at the same time, you hope for that person's future to be safe in his/her lover's arms.

Career.

You might love to be a well known cook or a rocker and guess what. You ended up being a doctor.because you do not want to break your parents' heart. Again.. That's not what you want or what you really desire. Funny how life can be at times and how humorous God can really be. Yet, He still bless us and keep us well.

These might be just the common examples of not getting what you want in life. Heck what, think positive and who knows, greater things might come and take you around and transform you into an amazing thing! :)

Coming back to life. It's like a new adventure waiting to be unfold. You may think you're the person holding the pen or there might be someone who is the author, who cares, all I know is when I look up the sky, I see that the world is so big and there are so many things waiting for me to venture into.

I'm sure everybody is busy jotting down and ticking away with their new year's resolution(s).
hahaha.. Me? I don't even have one this year. I thought of losing weight but guess what, I did! Yet, it's not in my new year resolution list. So, basically, it's empty. But, in my heart, I know I did learn something new this year and I thank God for his amazing love as always. I heart you God.

Right now, I'm gonna think what are my new year's resolution and may this one vision leads me to be a better person! Hurrah! :)

See ya all around again.

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

cheers!

2009-12-26T01:10:00.003+08:00

The new year is arriving!!!

Time flies!!!

Updates soon... Wait ya...

Love from me always...
Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Christmas Season... Here!! Now!!! :)

2009-12-08T00:37:00.002+08:00

Christmas is Near.
And Here We Go Again! :)) Enjoy!

I want to wish you all a blessed Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

More Christmas songs coming up! :)))

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

HELP!!! RAPTURE IS NEAR!!!! 2012???

2009-11-29T23:18:00.004+08:00

Alright, I have been blogging for quite some time. ( I meant writing and not video blogging. ;P)
*Do I still know how to write? hehee... I guess so.

Well, currently my life right now is pretty good. God has been with me throughout my rough moments and now the waves are clear and I can see the tame waters swirling and tickling the edge of my toes. Ah! Nature, how great is God's creation. :)

I'm currently working part time with Dama Orchestra. I used to do my internship there and they want me to continue and I've somehow accepted the offer. Basically, I'm just editing some videos and continue to do some archive work. At the meantime, I'm still waiting for an answer from the Australia University (VCA - from now onwards, I shall just write VCA). If it's God's will and plan for me to go there and further my studies, then I shall be there and He will be with me and take me through as I know the rough ahead of me will be 10x more challenging than now. But, nothing is impossible in God. :)

I've been spending lots of quality time with my family nowadays since I'm part time working. I miss spending time with them. We usually go out for dinner, do a little window shopping, buy some groceries, and watch a movie or chill in a cafe and talk about life. Last week, we went to watch this blockbuster you and I know about, 2012. Some people said it was really good. Some said with was bad. What about me?

As you know big blockbuster are not always excellent, and I do not think this is a great film either. The director, Roland Emmerich, likes to touch on topics like the end times or something evade the earth and he loves to dig in to history and search for facts and create his brand new world of its own. Well, I do like how he loves to touch on interesting topic like that, I'm sure everybody loves mysterious, unanswerable questions and the end of days.
I don't really like the story of the film. I know he wants to focus on family and I like how directors touch on family and bring awareness to people but the way he did it, I do not amuse me. Though, the visual effects and those loud grabbing-on-the-edge-of-your seats effect did work on me. I was basically in the cinema doing all these little weird gestures ( if you can imagine...hehehe...), probably the person behind me was going to throw his/her slippers at me. ;P
Back to critical thinking, I really don't like how everything was just right and about time and they are all safe. In reality, I don't think it will ever happen. Hundreds of meteoroids come blasting towards earth and an airplane just flew pass safely? A cool limousine can just drive through cracks and picket fences, fly through buildings and land safely on the ground while the earth slowly sinks? I do not think it's possible. Therefore, I disagree with him in how he wants to make all the heros in the story safe. At least few people die, please!

*even my mom was like, it's so fake! it's so fake!*

I like how the director touches on the government and how dark politics were involve and how he deals with the different classes within people. I like how he tackles the poor and the rich and the people with power. The poor are always the last, the rich... thank god they got money to build such a big ship, so they get the chance to see awhile, and lastly the people with power. They are the ones who call the shots. I also like how presidents humble themselve to serve mankind. Well, I do hope in reality it's like this. :)
But, it's good that Hollywood blockbusters always come with a good ending. Hopeful. My conclusion, I do not think the film is good nor bad. It was alright. :)

So after watching the film, what's your feeling? Some people are afraid of that day to come. Some people do not even want to think about it. And many are already planning of what to do, what to bring and what to expect for that day. Me?

I went to my mom's church and the pastor preached this during his sermon last week.
Reminder: We, christians, need to seperate biblical truth and Hollywood fiction. :)
It is true that what have been written in the bible and what have been prophesied is slowly coming to life. You can see false prophets deceiving people, you can see wars and rumours of wars, you can see nation fighting with nations, earthquakes, famine... and the list goes on and on. BUT, these are just the beginning of the birth pains. The worse is yet to come.
Church will undergo persecution. Christians will be hated and killed. The temple is going to be desecrated. The sun will be darken, the moon will not shine and the starts will fall from the sky. Are you afraid? Am I scaring you? Well, these are all in the bible.

Mark 13:13
"All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved."

Christians, my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, Stand firm in Christ! Be strong in the Lord.

I hope that you are having peace in your heart right now. End times is near. But, we are preparing for this greater day when Jesus is coming to take us all back to Him and He will give us a new body and make us clean again and we will no longer suffer on earth. We will praise and worship at His feet everyday of our lifes. :) How amazing is His love! Amen!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

I don't want to be LOR

2009-11-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

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JayTee

Satu Lagi!! =PPP

2009-11-13T23:01:00.001+08:00

Juno Soundtrack
All I Want Is You

Enjoy!

Dedicating this to " Write Love On Her Arms".
I can be your friend. :)

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JayTee

SMILE BY ME :)))))))

2009-11-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

Enjoy!
:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

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JayTee

Don't stop believing - Sam Tsui

2009-11-12T00:11:00.003+08:00

This guy is really good! You should check him out!! =)

Sam Tsui is his name.

ENJOY!

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JayTee

MY updates...Interested?

2009-11-11T23:15:00.002+08:00

p/s :-
I just got an email from Australia...They are going to do a tele interview with me. Wish me blessing. =)
May God Continue To Be With Me...
Song is coming up real soon...

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Adam Lambert - WANT

2009-10-26T19:53:00.000+08:00

i can't wait for his album!!! ><

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JayTee

STILL

2009-09-24T00:02:00.005+08:00

Be STILL and know that He is GOD

God will take us through GOOD times and ROUGH moments

We are under His WINGS

God protects, shields and hold our hands as we walk through the valley of darkness

Whom shall I fear?

I shall FEAR nothing but God

NOTHING is to DIFFICULT for Thee and we will continue to LEAN on Him

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

ME LOVE MYSELF

2009-09-22T23:56:00.005+08:00

I'm <3ing LIFE TO THE FULLEST

Why break your heart everyday?
Who is the one who will suffer?
Why think of unhappy moments?

There are people in this world who are living in much worse condition than you.
So don't frown. Don't complain. Don't sulk. I know life is filled with ups and downs, but who cares because we know all these things make us STRONGER

Throw those unpleasant moments away and BE HAPPY
SMILE and the world will smile with you. Continue to be strong and MOVE ON

I'm loving myself more and more each day because I know there's someone who is loving me with an undying love.

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

The Car Testimony

2009-09-20T22:28:00.002+08:00

This is real. This is not fake.

Believe it or not! It's real. You know why?? Because God is REAL.

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Relationships through hand clapping? hahaha

2009-09-18T23:10:00.003+08:00

Tadah! Welcome to my first ever video blog...=) Hope you guys like it!

Pls Find me some topic for me to talk...

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Jay Tee

Holy Moly? Holy Cow... Holiness..

2009-09-02T01:09:00.002+08:00

"God has only one intended destiny for mankind— holiness. His only goal is to produce saints. God is not some eternal blessing-machine for people to use, and He did not come to save us out of pity— He came to save us because He created us to be holy.

Holiness means absolute purity of your walk before God, the words coming from your mouth, and every thought in your mind - placing every detail of your life under the scrutiny of God Himself. Holiness is not simply what God gives me, but what God has given me that is being exhibited in my life."

- Oswald Chambers

Am I holy?
I'm still human. By the grace of God, little by little everyday, God is taking me through thick and thin in my life. Amen.

What about you today? Are you reflecting Him?

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

What does Joyce means?

2009-08-31T17:19:00.003+08:00

You Are Level-Headed and Trustworthy

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What do you think? Is that the meaning of my name? hahaha...
Well...I don't really care. God created with something special and unique and I don't give a damn about the meaning of my name. Can you imagine if I share all this attitude with other Joyces around the world. Then, the world will no longer be as unique as it is.

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

I appreciate you

2009-08-31T16:46:00.002+08:00

I was sitting near my window, looking at God's wonderful creation.
I need to confess that I've not been appreciating some things in my life. Little things I choose to ignore.

Do you ever look at trees, stars, birds and sky?
Do you sometime look out from the window and smile?
When your friends are talking to you, are you thinking of something else?

Looking back over my years, I don't think I've appreciate anybody enough. I start to appreciate all of them, one by one. Well, who cares if they appreciate things that we do, but, we all do it with our hearts, soul and mind. We need to be like that.

We CHOOSE to appreciate all these little things, both big and small.
It's up to them to appreciate what we do.

I appreciate...

God's creation
My family
My dogs
My bedroom
My guitar
My church friends
My primary school friends
My high school friends
My college mates
My old tumbler
My clothes

~~and whatever that has been with me the whole time through, living and dead.

I appreciate YOU

Better appreciate them now one by one before they leave this world.
I begin to understand why my dad keeps telling me to live by the moment because
once time passed, there's no turning back and you will just waste your time away.
Recently, many of my loved ones, closed ones leave this town, this city, this world.
Therfore,

APPRECIATE APPRECIATE APPRECIATE

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Do you, uh, Joyce?

2009-08-30T21:10:00.002+08:00

Go to: http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi
Put your name in, and generate slogan after each question.

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
Can't do it on real life. Do it on, Joyce!

2. What do you want other people to say about you?
I can't believe it's not Joyce.

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
The Joyce that eats like a meal.

4. How would you answer a booty call?
Think Joyce.

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
Moms like you choose Joyce.

6. To someone you dislike?
Let your finger do the walking through the Joyce.

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
The lighter way to enjoy Joyce.

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
Joyce keeps going and going.

9. You're failing a subject, you say.
Always after me Joyce.

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
Joyce is good for you.

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
Spreads straight from the Joyce.

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...
If you can't beat Joyce, join Joyce.

13. What are the best words to describe you?
Don't forget the Joyce, mom.

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Leaves your Joyce minty not mediciney.

15. Your last words before you die...
How many licks does it takes to get into the center of a Joyce?

16. Your message to a special someone..
Out of the strong came forth Joyce.

17. Title of this post will be...
Do you, uh, Joyce?

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JayTee

ting-ga-tings

2009-08-29T20:04:00.002+08:00

I'm in <3 with

THE TING TINGS~~~

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JayTee

Tweet Tweet Tweet

2009-08-26T00:55:00.002+08:00

If you're nosy, then join Twitter!
I'm Twitting too

Tell me where is our privacy?? hahaha...

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JayTee

L.O.S.T.

2009-08-21T11:52:00.005+08:00

When you can't be with the person, and all you can do is look at the person from a distance &

pray that the person is always well and happy

Keep appreciating your love ones,

you'll never know what happen to them or yourself.

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JayTee

*sound of flies buzzing...

2009-08-13T23:10:00.004+08:00

OMG!!!!

My Blog Is Stale...=PPPP

I'm so busy with my work...where got time to blog...but got time to take some photos in office...

shhhhh....

God bless you all... I'm thinking of a lot of things... I got so many things I want to tell you all... But..Patience k...It's a good virtue...

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JayTee

What about love?

2009-08-01T02:04:00.001+08:00

LOVE is a big word.

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JayTee

Latest update =)

2009-07-21T22:35:00.004+08:00

Hey guys,

sorry..I've been really busy right after my final graduation project. Will update you guys about it but have to wait a little longer.

Do you know why???
Because my internship starts right after that. Basically, I have no rest. One after another. But, I can't wait for November because I finally graduate and I'll turn into a moss and start to rot at home. =D

And to myself...
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JOYCE!!!
hahahaha... I'm a little crazy...=) Nothing much happened on that day.. I just went to watch my sis' dance performance and that was my final graduation day where examiners came to grade us...=S

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JayTee

My final Graduation project =)

2009-07-06T22:30:00.005+08:00

This is what I've been busy-ing all along. Make sure you come and support my hardwork!!! =)

STAGE / SCREEN PRODUCTION PROJECT
The 6th Batch of Senior Students from the
Department of Performance & Media

March 07 senior students from the Department of Performance & Media are presenting their final video projects at Sunway University College: The Props of Life and Crumbling Cookie. Both videos have been executed by the students themselves from pre-production through to post-production.

The Props of Life comprises three stories connected by one object, an umbrella. This narrative film revolves around the stages of life, family and relationship. Directed by Howard Law, June Wong and Rebecca Dawson.

Crumbling Cookie is a story of a young man constantly pushed to the edge of his life. Having lost his parents and dumped by his fiancée, Timothy is on the verge of committing suicide. Directed by Joyce Tay.

The Props of Life presented by Aaron Wong, Howard Law, Joanna Soh, June Wong, Khaz, Olivia Kang, Rebecca Dawson & Reuben Cheow;
performed by Shah Shaha, Melinda Wong, Amir Izwan, Howard Law & Joanne Ooi.

Crumbling Cookie presented by Alou Dembele, Dwayne Tan, Joanna Foo, Joyce Tay, Khoo Ee Ping & Roger Liew;
performed by Diandra Arjunaidi, Khaz, Syamsul Azhar (Sam) & Ty-lene Cook.

Publicity Gabriella Robinson & Joanna Soh

Acknowledgements
Leow Puay Tin (Head, Department of Performance & Media, Sunway University College), Joe Yan, Bernice Chauly, Mr. Jasbir (Media Manager of Monash University), Monash University, Joanna Foo & Family, Laksa Shack Restaurant, Sunway Pyramid, The Befrienders Organization, Kuala Lumpur, Madam Chew Pek Moi, Mr. and Mrs. Tan Teong Sin, Irene Goh, Mr. and Mrs. Liew Ah Chuan, Grace Yeoh, Sharmila Subramaniam, The Department of Performance & Media, Sunway University College.

Date and time :	Friday, July 10, 2009 at 8:30pm
	Saturday, July 11, 2009 at 11:00pm Saturday, July 11, 2009 at 2:00pm
Venue :	Roof Top Theatre, Sunway University College

Booking no :0172372459

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JayTee

Happy Parents' Day!!!

2009-06-22T01:17:00.003+08:00

It was Father's Day. Our family went out for dinner to eat Japanese food (Sushi Groove). Well, my dad loves sushi and wasabi, therefore, Japanese food. It was all last minute planning so that my sis, Amanda, could join us. So, no pictures for that. Sorry dad..

I forgot to upload pictures from Mother's Day's event. We went to Bubba Gump Shrimp. It was alright. I would prefer TGIF or Chillies. =) Cause I'm a meat person not a seafood person. hahaha..Happy Family! =)
May God continue to bless and uphold each and everyone of us.
Forrest Gump got long hair?? Noooooooo.....

Stop Forrest Stop! This is when you want the waiter to come over to your table.
My mouth is really big...hahaha... =DDD
Daddy Mommy, I love you!
You guys have been there for me all these years. Thanks!
May God continue to use both of you mightily in many ways.

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Youth Sunday

2009-06-15T22:39:00.002+08:00

Alright... I've edited the video and tried to post it in youtube for the first time. It failed me twice...n finally...Tadah...

Actually I had a better version. But Youtube got some problem. I can't post it...Probably it's too big. This is avi version. Smaller but can see...=)

So, Youth Sunday happens every year. This year, I hardly took part in anything because of my finals. It's not easy but I've tried my best to serve in church as well as doing my part in my work in college.

I was one of the back up singer and I think I did improve in my singing and I got a little more stamina than last time. Thanks to "Music and Dance" class. Anyway, God is real as always. He had touched me again and again and keep my fire burning again. I want to keep that fire going again. I know it's tough and I don't want to fail God again and again. He has been there for me. I also want to be there for Him. I got this vision few years back. The vision of me leading the people into worship, worshipping Him in spirit and in truth. Well, I still need to think about it. I know I'm not prepared for that yet. Let me just focus on playing my guitar. =)

I was put to be a default Service Leader on that day. I was not really prepared but I just let God's spirit move. As usual, our church got so many orders and procedures that need to be done which I'm unsure of. But, with the help of some people, I managed to pull it off. hahaha... I did so many mistakes but still got so many people came to me and told me I was good and should make me a Lay Reader!!! Well...I'll probably think about it...=)

Then, the performance done by our youth was amazing. It had touched many hearts for sure. I'll continue to pray for everyone who has watched the video and also the live performance to be moved by God and through this performance, lives will be changed and transformed! Good job, YOUTHS!!!

Last but not least, the most important, the Youths need to thank God for everything. All these gifts and talents that we have comes from Him. Thank you, God! I heart you very much! Muaks..

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JayTee

Zombie invasion

2009-06-11T01:57:00.002+08:00

I want to introduce you to a mini funny cartoon series called "Zombie College".
If you like Happy Tree Friends, you might like this too. It has a well-written story line and it's quite funny and disturbing at the same time.So far, I've watched 13 episodes. I hope there will be more coming out soon...=)

This is the link to all the episodes.
http://www.icebox.com/index.php?id=show&showid=s20

Have fun watching zombie eating brains!

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JayTee

Movie Reviews from amatuer critique =P

2009-06-09T23:48:00.006+08:00

Movies I've watched this month. Now I know where all my money flew to...hahaha..=)

Everyone knows that the storyline for Terminator never changes, but it all varies from different point of view. From John Connor, to Sarah Connor to John's dad or to Terminator itself. Roughly, all of us know that its either future time or present time where the Terminators hunt John's dad down.

I must give credits to all the special effects. Nowadays, CGI are just so amazing. You wonder how technology can do such crazy effects. Who knows technology might rebel and fight against human mankind, just like the movie. I like the part in the beginning where there's a long take of John Connor in the helicopter and it crashes. The whole camera angle was nicely composed and all the visuals just fit into place. There were no crazy editing though, just lots and lots of special effects.

Besides that, the sound effect for this movie is fantastic. It really enhance the whole atmosphere of the movie. The funniest part throughout the whole movie was the special appearance of Arnold Schwarzenegger.

My rate for this movie : 6.5/10

Remember Night At The Museum? Hilarious right? The characters are all amusing and uniquely shaped. Well, here comes Part 2! With the same old characters +++ new ones. The new ones are hot and stunning. Cuter than ever and makes you even more imaginative. I sometimes wonder how do those people create such awesome characters and actors who can pulled it off so well. =)

If you're moody and you need something to cheer you up.. My advise is go watch the movie. It will definitely boost up your day with happiness.. =)

I love how those little side creatures that suddenly pop out like the red balloon dog, the portraits that can be moved, the octopus, the 3 cupids, Wobbly Einsteins...bla bla bla... The evil characters are also funny in their own way. Amy Adams is one of my favourite actress and she is so hot. She is good in characterization too. I give her A+ for acting. hahaha...

Ben Stiller is still the same of funny creature. =)

My rate for this movie : 8.5/10
I got no idea why I would waste my money on this but yeah I did. hahaha...
Anyway, it's not that bad but it's not really good too. haha... It's a old school teenager movie where girls will fall head over heels over Zac Efron.

Well, the beginning of the show is like a remake of High School Musical. The storyline was pretty weird, suddenly the janitor appeared from nowhere and made him 17 again.

The best of all in this movie was his friend, Ned. It's a very well-played character. Weird and Awesome at the same time. It resembles me at times being such a kid eventhough I'm already old enough to be some great role model. I want his house and his nerdiness made him great!

My rate for this movie : 6/10

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JayTee

Just so you know..=)

2009-06-07T21:27:00.002+08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage : Starbucks. Dark Mocha Berry Frap..=PP
2. Last phone call : Auntie Ivy
3. Last text message: June
4. Last song you listened to: Plain White T's- 1234
5. Last time you cried: When I was broken hearted?

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Nope
7. Been cheated on: Yup
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Nope
9. Lost someone special: Nope and I do not want that to happen
10. Been depressed:Nope. I'm always a happy go lucky person. But, sad at times.
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope. I can drink. A lot...=D

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Any sort of blue
13. Any sort of striking colours that will attract people's attention
14. Black is not a colour.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Oh....Yes!
16. Fallen out of love: Nope. Semper Fedelis. Faithful till the end.
17. Laughed until you cried: Definitely
18. Met someone who changed you: Nope.
19. Found out who your true friends were: Nope. I do not trust people that easily. I've learnt my lesson
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Oh yes...Such a hypocrite... That's why, do not trust anyone.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Nope. I don't simply give away my priceless lip.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Do I even have a friends list?
23. How many kids do you want?: None. Probably adopt.
24. Do you have any pets: Yes. 2 dogs. I want a ferret!!!
25. Do you want to change your name: Yeah. But I do not want to tell you. hahaha..
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Erm...Nothing.. Life still goes on without people knowing..hahaha..
27. What time did you wake up today: 7.40am
28. What were you doing at midnight: Asian cafe-ing with my buddies.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Study in overseas and work there.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: Friday night. I'm home alone now for 3 days...weeee...
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: you really want to know? Ask me personally..hahaha..
32. What are you listening to right now : My own heart beat.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Erm...Short form of Tom? Tommy? I just talked to him just now.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Taking other people's responsibilities.
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook and yahoo mail.
36. Whats your real name: Joyce Tay Shu Ping
37. Nicknames: Fatty. Ling Ku. Gorrila. Juicy. Bla bla bla...the list goes on and on.
38. Relationship Status: Single and not available.
39. Zodiac sign: Cancer. But I do not believe those meanings.
40. Male or female?: Both Male and Female.
41. Primary School?: Sjk (C) Chung Kwok
42. Secondary School?: Smk Convent Peel Road
43. High school/college/university?: College
44. Hair colour:Black and Dark Brown and one strain of white hair.
45. Long or short: Short-ish
46. Height:155 cm...
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Crush? No...I told you...I'm a very faithful person...hahahaha..
48: What do you like about yourself?: I like my stupidity
49. Piercings: Both ears.
51. Righty or lefty: Lefty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: on my leg when I was in Form 1
53. First piercing: Both ears when I was a kid
54. First best friend : Best friend? Unknown...
55. First sport you joined: I'm old... I don't even know...
56. First vacation: Genting? Penang? Singapore? hahaha...
58. First pair of trainers: what trainers? Shoes you mean??? I guess it's Standard 4.

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: Nope. Just finished my dinner with my aunts.
60. Drinking: I want to... It's just right behind me.
62. Listening to: My own heart beat. The air cond.
63. Waiting on: a person's reply.

YOUR FUTURE

64. What kids?:Many many adopted kids.
65. Get Married?: Nope.
66. Career?: actor. Director. Designer. Creative side of performing arts.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Lips
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Taller!
70. Older or Younger: Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach
73. Sensitive or loud: Both are negative.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger : Nope.
77. Drank hard liquor : Yeah
78. Lost glasses/contacts : Yeah... hahaha...just had that experience a couple weeks ago.
79. Sex on first date: Nope.
80. Broken someone's heart: Maybe
82. Been arrested: Nope.
83. Turned someone down: Yes.
84. Cried when someone died: Yes.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself : Nope. I got very low self esteem. I know it's no good but yeh...
87. Miracles : Yes
88. Love at first sight: Never!
89. Heaven: Yup yup yuppie...
90. Santa Claus: It's a myth..
91. Kiss on the first date: hmmmm... Guess so...haha...
92. Angels: I'm an angel. =D very angelic.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Nope
95. Did you sing today?: yeah
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: I'll never do this sort of things.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: When I was a kid. young and naive.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: The last day of that year.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? : Yes. Very!!!
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: I guess so...hahaha...

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

God bless the broken road and continues to lead me through..

2009-06-07T02:08:00.002+08:00

Holy Molly...
It feels really good going back to my home sweet home... I meant my church...

Again,
I've been MIA-ing for a couple of months and every time I take my first step back to church, something in my body just welcomes me back.. Basically, I miss everyone there, all my friends, the music, band and everything... I feel pretty bad too, being a leader in church and not attending church for a quite some times...not quite some times, but I lot of time...I can say about approximately 2months... I feel so lost and empty and words couldn't explain how it feels like that.

But, I can't help it... I knew from the first place once I joined this course, my line, my industry is like that.. I'm pretty sure I got a different type of calling and my ministry might not be in church anymore. This is when I'm really being light of the world. It's really tough. It's like a paradox. It's either you're the light of the world or you're being pulled down by darkness.

The world is filled with many many things you wouldn't want to know. I'm pretty sure everybody realizes this when you start going college, university or even when you step into the world of the working life. It's different. It's not so easy like what you say or think. It's the opposite of every single thing.

The bible is real. The world is filled with emptiness, despair, sorrow, pain and temptations. All these different type of things draw you and tie you up and you will be trapped even though it's volumptious. You might want more and more of these different stuff, but, at the end of the day, you'll get nothing. What's left of one is pain, sorrow and any other negative things one can think of.

I need to confess. I'm not a good christian. I did so many evil things many do not know about and I'm hiding from my true self each and every day. It's tough. It's pain in the ass. Worse come to worse, I'm in this industry where temptations lead you further in and it draws you and kills you. Luckily, I must say, I still have God. No matter how bad I am, God is still very graceful to me and very merciful. From heaven above, I know, God is still watching over me and taking me through every single broken glass path that I'm facing.

I'm a hypocrite. Again, I'm not a good christian.
Thank God, by God's grace, He has been there for me the whole time through.

Thank you, J! You are my one and only best friend...

To others out there, remember the story "Footprints in the sand." It's a beautiful poem. Just continue to hang on and cling tight to the very truth. Trust me, it will lead you very far. Very very far indeed.

=) Cheers!

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JayTee

Where is my nintendo Wii, Mom???

2009-05-27T02:26:00.003+08:00

I might be getting a Nintendo Wii real soon!!!
All I need is MONEY!!!
How nice if money just pops up in front of me...I can get anything I want..

But people, I need your feedback.

Should I get a Wii or not???hehehe...not sure whether it might help, but just blast me with 10 thousands reasons of convincing me to buy or not to buy...

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Accidentally in love =)

2009-05-26T00:49:00.003+08:00

Somebody just tagged this on my facebook. Since I'm so free, and I'm listening to music. Why not just do it and see how silly it will be....hehehe...

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 21 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
I Kissed a girl (Katy Perry)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Happy Working Song (Amy Adams-OST Enchanted)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
lives in the club (Sophia fresh feat jay)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
The hills are alive ( OSt sound of music)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Tonight I wanna cry (Keith Urban)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Love Today (Mika)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
With You (Chris Brown)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Always be my baby(David Cook)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Hark, the harold angel sings/The music of Christmas ( Steven Curtis Chapman)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Real Gone (Sheryl Crow)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Pocket full of SunShine (Natasha Bedingfield)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Never gonna Leave your Side( Daniel Bedingfield)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Sing,Sing,Sing (Chris Tomlin)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
This is halloween ( OST- Night before christmas)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
So Close( Jon Mclaughlin)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Addicted (Simple Plan)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
when It's said and done ( OST-Mama Mia)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR??
Top of the world (The All American Rejects)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Starstruck (Lady gaga ft. Flo Rida)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
I'll cover you(OST- RENT)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
The remedy, I don't worry(Jason Mraz)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Accidentally in love (counting Crows)

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Updates!!

2009-05-26T00:08:00.004+08:00

After so long of MIA-ing in church and also in my own blog. It's time to sit in front of my computer and start exercising my fingers again. This doesn't mean I'm free, but I just want to chill out for awhile, then, I'll get back with my work.

I'm currently doing my finals! It's my last project and I'm really serious about this project. Very serious about it.
It all started with me thinking about what I should I do for my final project. We are supposed to present our proposal and hand in our ideas to all our fellow classmates and lecturers.

I had a really hard time to decide on topics that I want to do. Themes like love, family, friends, life... are all in my head. I do not want to touch on any sensitive issue like God cause it might just makes people feel uneasy. I thought of doing something that can also change things and move people. And so...

This idea of suicide just passed through my head. It appeared to me over and over again. Well... I guess I should do this topic then. I'll make it like a docudrama and it touches about love, family, friends and also life..=)

Even though, it did not really touch about God. It touches on how we as human beings should appreciate life and also the one around us. We should love and cherish everybody who is with us.

So, my goodie goodie friend, Christine, helped me with my proposal and the lecturer picked mine. I was quite shocked actually, yet, happy at the same time. I could not believe my eyes that my project was chosen.

I'm the director for this docu-drama. I'm working...Geee... Just uphold me, people. Hopefully this short film will touch lives!!!

* If you got any feedbacks about suicide or any sort of information...Just let me know.. I need lots!!*

If you guys follow along with my Sam and Giselle story, you might think it's the end of it, but it's not. Of course, it will not end like this. It might never end. Just let me continue in my next blog k...=))

Have fun!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

American Idol, Another reality TV show

2009-05-24T15:57:00.005+08:00

If you're an Idol addict, I'm pretty sure you know who won the title this year.
In conclusion to all these reality TV show, we can never guess what we want, it's so unpredictable.
But, I would want Adam Lambert to get crowned with that title but Kris Allen came HUMBLY and took it away.
Apart from all these title winning, the both of them and also Danny Gokey will definitely rise and shine in the music world.

All of them, with very different style of singing and penetrating their vibes to the crowd, 3 of them have God given talent, which is their power box, their beautiful voice that will not break your window glass but will break every pain and every tension you have within your body. Their voice will release a certain type of hormones that will give you chills and you'll start to stand on your feet and start dancing.

Adam Lambert

He will still be my favourite among all of them. The first time I saw him during audition, I knew that this guy is going to go very far and might win the title. As I said again, it's a reality TV show. So, I just got to be realistic.
He is one sort of a theatre rock star! He comes from a performing family. Since young, he starts to melt hearts of many souls and now with his power box, he shakes the earth.
He might come out with a weird rock album, but I'll surely support him. Some people might not like his style of music, but most of all, I like his style of singing and screaming. =DDD

Kris Allen

This guy reminds me of Jason Mraz, Chris Tomlin... A mouth-watering guy with his guitar and strumming, humming his sweet tune to any hot ladies that passes him by. Any lady passes him by, will fall flat on the ground by his looks and charms. He got a slanted mouth especially when he sings and when he smiles. That's probably the reason, he won the title. =P I'm just kidding.
He do have his own style of singing. the acoustic, live performance type suits him the best.
His album will probably like a mixture of John Mayer and Jason Mraz.
Fun, happy, and soothing to the ears...

Among all, Carrie Underwood is still my favourite. Not forgetting Melinda Dolittle...=)

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Sugar + Honey= Super Duper Sweet!!! =)

2009-05-20T03:14:00.004+08:00

I'm in love with this song.
I'll sing this to my love every day, every night, every single moment. =)
And I love ARCHIE COMIC..
Jughead is so like me...Food, food and food. Sleep, sleep and sleep.

Sugar,
Oh, Honey Honey.
You are my candy girl,
and you got me wanting you.
Honey,
Oh, Sugar, Sugar.
You are my candy girl
and you got me wanting you.

I just can't believe the loveliness of loving you.
(I just can't believe it's true).
I just can't believe the wonder of this feeling too.
(I just can't believe it's true).

Sugar,
Oh, Honey Honey.
You are my candy girl,
and you got me wanting you.
Honey,
Oh, Sugar, Sugar.
You are my candy girl
and you got me wanting you.

When I kissed you girl,
I knew how sweet a kiss could be.
(I know how sweet a kiss can be)
Like the summer sunshine
pour your sweetness over me.
(Pour your sweetness over me).

Oh pour little sugar on me honey (sugar)
Pour little sugar on me baby (honey honey)
When you make love so sweet (Yeah Yeah Yeah.)
Pour little sugar on me (oh yeah)
Pour little sugar on me honey
Pour little sugar on me baby
I'm gonna make love so sweet (hey hey hey)
Pour little sugar on me honey.

Ah sugar.
Oh honey, honey.
You are my candy, girl,
and you got me wanting you.

Oh honey (honey, honey, sugar, sugar)
Sugar, sugar
You are my candy girl.

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Seed to Baby Tree

2009-05-18T12:52:00.003+08:00

Finally, it's over!!!
weeee...
I've grown so much throughout the process of the production.
I won't comment on the production. But, I'm proud of myself and the process I've been through.
I've been through ups and downs, rough and smooth roads.

"Welcome to the real world!!!"

I guess this is an eye opener for me. This is how the world will be.
How people can be nice to you just to get benefits from you.
How people think they are so high and mighty, and just boss you around, cleaning up their dirts.
How people can be so irresponsible and still can put the blame on someone else's shoe.
So many things...

But I've grown and learnt a lot.

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

Tired and Sick

2009-05-06T23:31:00.006+08:00

I'm tired of everything
I'm worn out Physically, Mentally, and Emotionally

Right now, I'm working so hard just for the grades
This is my first time working in such an unhappy condition
I myself do not know why
Maybe I feel that there are too much weight on me
Maybe I'm taking everything up

I do not want to complain
I choose not to
I'm unsure what is letting out my frustration is, what complain is and what is gossip!!!

Everytime you say something
There are people listening
Their ears are so attentive
Their eyes are so bright
Then, somehow whatever we say will go somewhere
It becomes RUMOURS!!!

Well, I guess I just need to hang on for one more week
I shall do this for God and myself and nothing else

I'm ill...=((( I've got fever, sore throat, cough, flu. All in a package.
My body aches like crazy and my leg....Poor leggie...

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JayTee

Another few more months =PPPP

2009-04-28T22:25:00.005+08:00

Human being can never be satisfied with what they have...
I'm also a human being...=)))
I want new stuff...

I can't wait to get my Levi's shoes!!!!

Ipod NANO!!!!
This gadget is just so cool and I love the colours!!!
Striking enough to get some attention =PPP
I want the electric blue one or the lime green!!!

Sony Ericsson C905
I want a new phone so badly...
My recent phone is driving me crazy again. It's not even a year yet!!!
This would be a dream come true if i'm RICH!!!

This is a Crocs shoes.
It's comfy and it's all black. Suitable for me when I'm off stage working.
Behind the scenes =)

Since most of my clothes give out a certain bad odour.
I need NEW CLOTHES badly!!!

I like this sweater.
It just falls from my shoulder.
Argh!!! Where can I get this for free? hahahaha...

I want a vest too!

Body hugging-BLUE IS COOL!!!Thunder Cats!!!

Another striking hoodie for me???

OMG!!!!
I want so many things...
Too many things!!!!
hahahaha...

Since my birthday is coming in July...wink wink...
You guys know what to do
=)))

My wish....
Continue to dream on

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JayTee

SCREW MY DAY!!!!

2009-04-22T15:44:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!! My week turns from bad to worse...

Somebody in college just knocked into my mom's car. And there's a huge dent in the left back of the passenger's sit... With red paint on it....

I just called back to inform my mom. And she started scolding me...

I parked in a normal college parking space. The car was in its box. I did not go over to the other side. And why....Why that fella can still bang the car??? That fella got KOPI O license is it?

ARGH!!!!!!!!!! SOMEBODY MUST BE CURSING ME SOMEWHERE!!!!!

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JayTee

Melinda Doolittle is one of the best besides Carrie

2009-04-21T00:57:00.003+08:00

I miss Melinda Doolittle from American Idol...
She is GREAT!!!

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JayTee

ARGH!!!

2009-04-20T11:51:00.002+08:00

I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!

I did so much, helping people out when they are in need, but how come in return, I got all bad stuff...

SOB SOB SOB!!!

Does that mean I need to have a heart of stone?
Does that mean I need to stand for myself and start to say No to things?

HELP!!!! I don't know how to say NO to people. Everytime I say NO, my heart feels the guilt and pain. But, if I continue to help people, I might get myself in deep shit...

S.O.S.

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JayTee

J.E.S.U.S.

2009-04-12T17:42:00.003+08:00

I'm sure you can be pretty imaginative. I want to tell you to close your eyes, follow my steps and imagine. But how can you follow my steps when you are closing your eyes. hahaha...
Anyway, just imagine...

There is this man. You do not know him. All you know is he was dead 2000years ago.
Some people think he is God, Some people think he is a prophet, Some people think he is King.
I'm sure you have some perception about him too. What do you think he is to you?

Let me remind you again. You may not know him. But, he knows you right from the beginning. He knows every part of you. He knows human beings are weak inside, easily tempted and fall into the trap filled with sin. Human beings then becomes sinful.
Well, maybe you think that you are not that sinful or you do not believe in sin,it's alright. Just bare with me a little longer. I do believe we are sinful, we are failures.
All these while, this man knows us. He knows what he is doing, he planned everything.

Good Friday? Easter? Coincidence?
This man came down from somewhere, became human and went through every part of a human being. After that, he suffered and died for all of us.
He paid the price for all of us. He became the ultimate sacrifice for us.
Historically, when a person sinned, he/she needs to sacrifice a pure animal and his/her sins are washed away. But now, this man, he became the ultimate sacrifice for us. We do not need to have animal sacrifice anymore.

You wonder sometimes how did this unknown man die for all of us when we don't treat him as friends. Eventhough, we do not treat him as a friend, ignore him many times, he still died for us.

He was slashed, crowned the king of torn.
Imagine, the end of a belt was hooked with many nails, then the belt slashes through the back of your body, the nails hook into your flesh and then ripped off from your body. This action was repeated over and over again. The floor is filled with blood.

He carried the heavy cross, was nailed and hung up high on a very hot afternoon,
Imagine, you are carrying a big tree trunk after brutally slashed by people whom you helped them before, the nails slowly piercing through your hands and feet, tied onto the cross and was lifted high up. The gravity is pulling you down inch by inch. Your flesh slowly tear apart because of the nails.

Slow and painful death...

This man did it for all of us.
He made us victorious.

It's up to you to believe this story.

And always remember this, he is always at the door of your heart waiting for you to invite him in to be your closest friend.

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JayTee

Somewhere out there

2009-04-10T01:15:00.003+08:00

I sang this in my high school before and I made people cried.
hahahaha...

Somewhere out there- An American Tails OST

I love this song since I was a little kid.
Now, I can only sing this song to put me to sleep...
Always hopeful...Dreams will come true...

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

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JayTee

Mad World

2009-04-10T01:03:00.004+08:00

Adam Lambert is so gonna win American Idol. =)
First time listening to it, my goose pimples stand all over.
This song really hits people straight to their face.
How the world has been transformed into...

Adam Lambert's version.

Gary Rules' version.

All around me are familiar faces
worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very, mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

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JayTee

Busy-ness

2009-04-09T17:57:00.003+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen,

I've been really busy nowadays. And probably I would not have the time to write any blog for now. But, just an update. Due to my final production, I've been running here and there, trying to sort things out, experimenting on various exciting things, and do some research on projections. It would be great to utilize these things in other places next time like in church.

And I'll begin to MIA again. Be prepared to not see me in church for all my weekends will be taken up. =(((

My phone is also giving me trouble. BTW, I've changed from a Digi to a Maxis user. So friends, I'm not wasting so much of your credits now.
*My number is still the same.*

Busy! Busy!! Busy!!!

Another thing, if you are really stressed up and you want to throw things or release some stress. This is a nice zombie game.
The Last Stand 2.
It's free. =)) And it keeps you awake after awhile...

http://armorgames.com/play/1443/the-last-stand-2

Take care, people!
God bless us all!

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JayTee

Raindrops keep falling on my head

2009-04-06T19:27:00.004+08:00

I like the weather nowadays.
I like to play in the rain.
I like to run and jump in the puddle of mud outside my house.
It is the best time to sleep during this season.

Now and then my eyes would just close
Wishing that the world would just end right now
I would just relax my mind and free my thoughts

Not letting the world and the temptations around distract me

No matter how nice or wonderful this weather makes me feel
There's a terrible side effect
No matter how relax I try to be
The pain within my bones and my joints would haunt me tormenting me, killing me
It's like a million tiny sharp blades stabbing into your flesh and right through your bones
Piercing through
In and out, in and out Never ending.

That's physical pain. I still can stand a little longer.
Emotions and feelings that haunt us, the slow torturous death will creeps in slowly when you do not realize and at the end, the actions you took, you suffer long.
The more you do not want to let go, the more poisonous it will be.

Sometimes, you wonder, what LOVE can do to a person...

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JayTee

My addictions

2009-03-31T21:21:00.007+08:00

Talking about me busy with my final production, to my surprise, I find time to watch Cantonese Series. I cannot believe it. Within one week, I can finish all forty episodes. =)

For almost 2 years of not watching TVB series, their stereotyped characters, their same narrative stories, still remains the same. I can predict most of the stuff. They got some technical problems, some editing and continuity problems. But still, I'm watching it and it got me addicted.

Linda Cheung is HOT HOT HOT!!!

If you ask me to choose between Raymond or Bosco, I'll choose Raymond. I think he can act better and Bosco looks older with his wrinkles at the side of his eyes.
Another thing that got me addicted. The game. Left 4 Dead. Almost everyday after college, I'll go with my mates to shoot them all, the zombies I mean. =)

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JayTee

Mon Amour

2009-03-29T23:21:00.005+08:00

Everybody needs love no matter how hard we deny.
Everyone wants people to care for them, to be there for them.
We don't like to feel lonely and be lonely.
We should always be grateful that no matter how shaky things may be, we still have friends and family to support us.
Think about the people who do not have any shelter, who have no food to eat, who have no clothes to wear, who pray for people to adopt them, to take care of them.

If right now, I got the money, I'll adopt as many kids as possible. Buy a big house. Feed them, give them shelter, clothe them, wash them clean and give them education. =)

Hello Love by Chris Tomlin

When our hope is hard to find and our faith is in decline.
We need a cause to stand behind- LOVE.

We all want the way it feels.
Time it comes and time it steals.
What remains, what is real- LOVE.

There is love, there is forgiveness. There is love in times of need.
When life is cold there is a promise.
You will never go without...
There is LOVE.

It heals the sick, comforts the weak, break the proud, raises the meek.
In this life no guarantees... but there is LOVE.

LOVE is the answer. LOVE will find a way.
When we love one another. It's a brighter day.

I will continue to love no matter what happen. Love will find a way. =)))
No matter how hard it is sometimes, I will love, continue to love, till the very end.

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JayTee

Earth Hour

2009-03-28T22:18:00.003+08:00

After being a very useless human being for 19years, I've finally joined the earth for once in my life, participating in this Earth Hour thingy.

Well, I did not really do much or celebrated anything. But, I did spend some quality time with my parents after my MIA days... =)

We had homemade Sushi for dinner. Then, we went to a nearby shopping mall just to buy some groceries. I was shocked to see shops and restaurants participating too. They switched off part of their shops' lights. After that, went home. Looking at my neighbours' house, total darkness. hahaha.. =)

We chit chat for quite some time, then countdown to turn on all the lights again. =)

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JayTee

Are you a womanizer???

2009-03-26T01:27:00.001+08:00

This Version of Womanizer is way better than Britney's version.

All American Rejects rocks the house!!!

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JayTee

I'm a big baby!!!

2009-03-25T21:44:00.003+08:00

It has been a month. Baby Jamie has officially joined the fatty fatty bum bum group. =) He is so healthy and he grew into a little tiny big giant baby.. hmmmm...somehow.. I'm contradicting myself. Anyway, he is really healthy. =) He will continue to stay at my place till my sis's maid is here. Probably 1-2 months more.. I'm so gonna miss him when he is no longer staying with me. =(((

Talking about babies...

They are the happiest thing on earth.

They always become the center of attention no matter where they go.

They are the most prosperous creature.

I want to be a baby again. I get all the attention I want. hahahaha... =) Not that I'm not getting any now.. I just feel that, sometimes, when I'm the center of attention, I feel good...hahahaha...

=PPP

Baby does not need to think of anything. Parents will take good care of them and think for them. Spoon feed them every single day. They have no worries. I got so many things in my head now. As we grow older, we are shaped by the things around us, i'm not saying it's a bad thing, but sometimes, we, have been brainwashed many times, influenced by many different people that stepped into our lives.

Now, I need to think about my future, where am I heading.

Should I continue my studies? I really want to study. Go overseas. Get a degree. Then, Masters. Then, maybe a PhD holder. =DDD

And not coming back to Malaysia.

On the other hand, I'm financially in need. My parents couldn't support me. I'm stuck.

Probably, I'll work first. Get some experience. More experience. At the same time, look for some scholarships that support the Arts.

Worries!!! Sometimes, I just want to turn back time and just let people take care of me.

But, I'll always remember...

Phil 4: 6-7

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds.

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JayTee

Quak quak quak

2009-03-23T21:15:00.006+08:00

Gosh!! I'm gonna be really busy again. And this time, it might last till the end of this year.

Woohoo... I really got no life. And I'm feeling a little down, cause I got a feeling that I'll go MIA again in church. =(((

I don't know why but I feel like getting a tattoo..hahaha...

Should I tattoo...

No Life?

No Heart?

Semper Fedelis?

or maybe some chinese characters...hehehe

or bible verses...hahahaha... den i do not need to memorize anymore...=PPP

Talking about wolves. I'm a little obsessed about them. I feel like one.

I want Freedom.

I'm Lonely.

Independence.

Maybe this picture looks good on my lefty.. =)

Any other suggestions? hahaha... But, 101% my parents would not allow me to get a tattoo...

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JayTee

Men vs Women

2009-03-20T20:49:00.005+08:00

I dislike typical chinese men. Their mindsets are just so " I don't know how to say!!!"

Man! I tell you. It's unfair for married women to bare with them. Sometimes, I just want to tell them straight to their face.

"Come on! You're a man. So, use your muscles and be a gentleman!!"

Their mindsets are women are supposed to do all the things at home, like literally everything! From cleaning the house, to changing light bulbs at home, to cooking, to giving pleasure to themselves at night. You should know what I'm trying to say. Their jobs are make money and give to the family and feed the family. That's all. Job done. This is unfair. Women are treated so low. Especially in those typical chinese family. Most Men are like that.

If you are a guy and you are reading this, please wake up and do something to your girlfriend(s) or spouse.

I'm saying this cause I saw my mom was working so hard all day long. And just because of a light bulb outside the house that needs to be replaced, my dad was just sitting at the hall doing nothing. My mom actually hinted a little. She told me that the light bulb has worn out. Few minutes later, he isn't moving his hair. So, I helped my mom to carry the heavy ladder from upstairs to the outside porch, climbed the ladder, unscrewed the worn-out light bulb and replaced it with a new one. The whole time through, my dad was just sitting on the couch drinking his tea.

I just do not understand what's happening to the men nowadays. No wonder, women do not need any man in their lives anymore. Most of the gentlemen in this generation are no longer available, they are either taken or they are just not straight.

Single ladies! Continue to stand strong and be strong. You do not need any flimsy men in your life. It will only slow you down. You can be superwoman anytime and do not need man to look down on you. =)

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JayTee

Episode 5-Sam was wrong

2009-03-16T20:37:00.005+08:00

His happiest moments in life? When he was with Giselle? It was partially true. Sam was floating on cloud 9. His dreams came true. Something he never thought it will ever happen in his life. Suddenly, this young lady, Giselle, existed, came and took over his life, his heart, his everything. He have his all into this relationship. Then, what went wrong? Why did people disagree of their relationship? Why did people talk behind Sam's back?

Even during his happiest moments, he has his bad times. He knew all these while he was the wrong one. He put himself into a deep pud of shit. He knew it all along but he continued going deeper and deeper. He did not listen to anyone, but himself that whole time through. He went on loving Giselle and that made his heart fatal. That made his heart crushed into a million pieces. He was the third person in the relationship.

It was a love triangle. All these while, there's this one guy who has been with Giselle for months before Sam had got his chance to get close with her. Giselle and this guy had feelings for each other. They love each other. They were together for months. Unfortunately, he had to go out of town to finish his current project and he promised Giselle that he will come back for her. He love Giselle very much too. No matter how far it was, no matter how long it will be, he continued to wait for those dreadful days to pass, waiting for that day he will meet Giselle again and be with her for his rest of his life. So, their relationship drifted a little further. No doubt, their hearts were there for each other at all time.

Sam knew of their relationship. Sam knew all along. But, he couldn't control himself. He fell for Giselle. Her aura was too strong for him to resist. He couldn't resist his own emotions and feelings anymore. During that semester together, when Sam and Giselle were working together, he just loved it. He just loved being with her. He just wants to be Giselle at all time. Deep in his heart, he wants to know what was Giselle feeling, what was Giselle thinking.

Sam took the wrong step. He was wrong. He went for Giselle when she has already got her heart desire. He was the one who made Giselle confused. He made Giselle broke down a million times and she did not know what to do next. Sam went all out for Giselle, he went crazy for her. He would break his house rules just to go out to meet Giselle. He would lie to his parents and tell them class would end late. He would go to Giselle's place to have fun with her and be with her. He was paying less attention in class. His performance in class was lacking. But, it did not matter Sam.

He knew he was wrong. When the guy came back from his project, he let Giselle go so that she will no longer suffer. He made that decision for Giselle. It was a tough one. A really difficult choice to make. He let Giselle to be with that guy. He deserved to be in this situation right now. He made his choices. It was wrong. Therefore, consequences. Still, who cares. Sam doesn't care. Till now, this very day, he is still loving Giselle from his bottom of his heart. That promise he had to Giselle would not break and will never ever break. No matter how hard it will be, how tiring, he will have to go through it all. That's his power of love towards the girl of his dream. One that will never come true unless a miracle happens.

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JayTee

What's new?

2009-03-16T17:02:00.004+08:00

My holidays are gone. It's less than a day. I'm already missing them. However, this is another new chapter in my life. I can't believe it, I'm a senior, in my course. I definately do not feel like one cause I'm always high on something. Hahaha.. How I wish to stay in Peter Pan's world, where you would never want to grow up. Forever staying young and hippy. Well, anyway, I can't stop time from moving forward, it actually moves faster day by day. So, every breathe that we take, we need to cherish it and always remember to live in the moment.

So, basically, my almost final semester, started earlier by 1 week. While all my juniors are still having their nice cup of tea and coffee on the beach or at home surfing the net, the seniors are starting on their final experimental theatre production which is coming up in May. I won't be acting. But, I'll be doing production work. It's going to be exciting and tedious at the same time. I'll be helping out in the sets, lighting, video, composing and looking for music and also being the front of house manager. That's ridiculously lots of work to do, but, I choose not to whine. I choose to be happy about it and enjoy what I'll be doing. I get to meet professionals and work with them personally.

On the other hand, at the back of my head, I'm a little worried about my personal life with God. I don't want to drift away like last semester where I went MIA for months in church. I felt so left behind that time. My relationship with God and also friends in church had a hole in it. The gap is so huge and I'm working my butts off to build the relationship with all of them again, in a more intimate way. I just want to be there for them when they needed me. A good buddy they can always rely on. Besides that, I'm a leader in the youth ministry, I need to set good examples to the young people and be a testimony for God. I also need to build a strong foundation with God. That's the most important thing cause he is my source of strength I'm drawing from everyday of my life. Without God, I guess I'm just a weakling, an useless creature living aimlessly on this planet.

I'll just pray day and night for God's continuous guidance in my life and also His strength and wisdom to be with me at all time. =) I know God will be with me at all time and at all places. If you believe there's a source of power, something that has created you, that special power, it's true, there is. All you need to do is believe in it, and that source of power will guide you too and lead you to somewhere miraculous and touches you in a very unique form where you will enjoy it in a tangible, subtle way.

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JayTee

Arise shine at the wrong time!

2009-03-12T02:16:00.003+08:00

I want to sleep so badly but I just couldn't.

Argh!!! I hate this feeling.

I've been tossing and turning around for almost 2 hours. Every time, I close my eyes, my mind starts to think. Think so much, I just couldn't take it anymore.

So, I on my lappie tappie and start to type.

Can't you see... I'm typing write now. Till, I'm feeling a little sleepy. Then, I'll sleep.

My body is so tired. My eyes are so tired. But, my mind is so wide awake.

=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

"Great! I love my life."

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JayTee

The clothes that I wear.

2009-03-11T22:43:00.002+08:00

This is quite an interesting test. I don't really believe in all these quizzes. But, this somehow matches me. =)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test102.aspx

This is the result.

What other see from your style

You tend to be a gentle and pleasant person. You love nature and at least some of the arts, and derive great satisfaction from being helpful. You are stubborn and are not interested in wealth and power.

J: Gentle?? hahaha... I'm rough. Yeah. But, the rest, I guess, it's quite correct. =D

What your nightclothes reveal

You are determined, strong and straight to the point. You like to be challenged and like to win as well.

J: I'm not determined and strong nor straight to the point. All bullshit! Sometimes though, I love challenges and I want to win.

What others see from your ties

You are kind and friendly. You are uncomplicated person and enjoy exciting activities.

J: Kind and friendly? Maybe. Who knows? Let my friends judge me. I don't want to judge myself. Yeah. I'm simple and I love activities. Outdoor, indoors, whatever.

What others see from your belts

You are a kind of person who likes to hide your feelings. You may have a hot temper but tend to cover it with an outwardly calm and gentle demeanor. You are sensitive when it comes to love.

J: That's so true. I love to cover up. Accurate. This quiz is a little scary. It reveals so much about me.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing, and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

J: I'm simple and sincere. I don't think I'm that open when it comes to my own thoughts and feelings. But, generally, I'm very open when it comes to any other subjects. The other parts are quite true too. =)

What others see from your earrings

You are probably an independent and strong-willed person. Fairness is important to you, and you always stand up for what you believe in. You are friendly and get along well with people.

J: Independent? At times. Not all the time. Strong-willed? No way. Yeah. Fairness! Who does like to be judged fairly? I do stand up for what I believe. But, I'm a coward. I don't really fight for it though.

The last analysis

You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things and enjoy socializing with friends. Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.

J: I'm clever? hahaha... Maybe. My friends and teachers have the rights to judge that part. =P I do love to learn new things and enjoy socializing with friends. Yeah. I love to spend time alone in my own cozy room. =)

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JayTee

Good deed?

2009-03-11T21:57:00.005+08:00

" I can't believe it, J! You're doing chores without being asked or being nagged by your mom. That's pretty amazing. Something has gotten into you? Kena rasuk hantu? Or you have changed? Turned into a good kid? You want reward in the end is it?"

I'm a little perasan. I think I'm a pretty good kid. Let me boast a bit.

Since, it's holiday and I got nothing better to do. As usual, holiday mood, I woke up so late. Amazingly, my mom did not nag at me. She was so busy babysitting.

I got out from bed. My heart became heavy, just by looking at my mom, working so hard, washing the baby's clothes, cooking for my sister, mopping the floor. It's like a never ending job for her.

So, I've decided to do something for her. I took my shower and I did part of her job voluntarily. I went out, washed her car (I did use this car a lot) and polished it. To tell you the truth, it was damn tiring washing such a huge car. I think I'll get muscle ache all over tomorrow. And it took me an hour to finish washing the car. While washing the car, I was dancing and singing in public.

Who cares if my neighbour thinks I'm crazy. I'm from the performing arts. I entertain people. I'm sure my neighbours were well entertained. I did some Elvis's moves and some Michael Jackson's dance. I played water with my dog.

After finished washing the car, I remembered what my mom said. She said my dog is very smelly, stinky and dirty. FYI, I seldom bathe my dog. I usually bathe my dog once in a blue moon. I'm serious. My instincts call me to bathe the dog. So, I did. I was so bored. I talked to my dog. I poured out my heart and soul to the dog. I think my dog thinks I'm crazy. But, I'm relieved! I do believe dog's are man's best friend.

Then, I helped my mom to sweep and mop the floor. Weee... Again.. I was singing away and dancing with the mop. I became a rock star. I was swinging my head all over the place and jumping like an elephant.

After all these, I was so exhausted! My mom came to me and kissed me on my forehead. She said thank you. I'm happy and content. My mom is happy.

No matter how I dislike chores, but, if I've lighten my mom's burden, I'm willing to do it for her. She is already quite old. I don't want her to have aches all over her body.

I love you, mom!

Erm...btw.. I deserve a little pat for myself right? hahaha...

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JayTee

Update on E mails

2009-03-10T22:49:00.003+08:00

This is my new e mail. It's for professional use. hahaha... Cause both my old e mails are a little too unprofessional. =D

jtaysp89@yahoo.com --> this is giving me a little problem. I got no idea why I couldn't compose messages. So, I've created another e mail.

jtaysp89@gmail.com --> So, this is the new one. Hopefully, you guys get it down.

No worries. I'll still be using my old e mails which are

littlebrainy@yahoo.com

manganyehyeh@hotmail.com

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JayTee

On my way

2009-03-10T17:54:00.005+08:00

Finally, I'm feeling a little better now. I guess what was really troubling me was the piano cables. hahaha... Phew... My "beloved" co-head kept it for me. She not such a mean person but I guess she doesn't know the art of handling people. Not a people-person. She always bosses people around especially if those errands are for her own good. But, that's the job of a boss right? hahaha... God will bless her in many ways! Thanks again to my co-head. =D

I went to college during my holiday just to do work, some production work. It is beginning. All the work loads are piling up like mountain. God will pull me through like always.

Then, I went to play zombie game with my fellow friends to release some stress and not to let my mind think so much.

Finally, I guess my holidays are really coming up. I'm feeling it. My body is loving it.

Ah!!! Holiday for another 5days... I really need to enjoy it to the fullest!!!

Whenever you're feeling emo, just ignore it and do something else that will always make you happy or things that will cool you down. Just distract those sad/negative thoughts. All they do is to make you even worse. It works for me.

Sing songs!

Jump on the bed! Sleep and hibernate!

cook! Eat good Food!

Watch lots of movies!

Have a good day ahead! All the best to people who took their SPM and STPM results!

Semper Fedelis

JayTee

i'm a BUM

2009-03-09T20:33:00.005+08:00

Everyday is a new day. I believe. Everything, every thought, every decision you make leads you to something else.

Today, it's a holiday. I don't even know. I'm really in no mood for holidays. Maybe, I'm feeling a little to restless. Cause all I do is hibernating and put some extra weight. Usually, during the holidays, I would wake up late, probably around 2pm, but amazingly, I woke up early, really early, 9am in the morning. Then, I just couldn't sleep back. My mind has been wandering all over the place.

Anyway, I begged my mom to take me to KLCC cause I want to spend myself, at least, I'll feel a little better. So... I bought some stuff. I bought a pair of Sunglasses and wallet. =DDD

Now, I need to save a big sum of money. Cause there's this electric guitar in the shop waiting for me to be its owner. =DDD

I've been a pretty good kid. I don't like gossips and I don't like to talk about people. But, I'm still human. At times, I do make fun of people and joke around with friends. But, never will I talk bad about people. People can always point fingers here and there, and put the blame on me.

Whatever. It doesn't matter. I know myself. If I do something, I'll admit. I know I did not do anything. So, it's up to people judge me. You can say whatever things you want. If you think I'm a bad person, go ahead and believe that cause I don't care anymore.

Continue to talk about me but at the end of the day, only God judges me.

Still, I'll be a friend. A very good friend. No matter what you want to believe or what you think of me, I'll still be a good friend. I don't hold grudges or vengeance.

Semper Fedelis

JayTee

Bad day

2009-03-08T22:19:00.004+08:00

Seriously, today I had a bad day. My mood was just all over the place. I don't even know how to control myself. I kept exploding inside. I tried so hard to contain everything inside. Some people just do not know how I feel. So many things are running through my head. Still, there are people who made me worse.

It was also my last performance in DPM(Sunway College). I did my best and I put my heart and soul in that final performance. Hopefully, the audiences enjoyed the whole performance. I think all of us pulled it off pretty well. Great Job!! The next production is coming out soon, I'll be doing production work. I'll be really busy. No break for me. But, I love what I'm doing. Though, I want to perform, but for this production, I want to meet professionals and experienced people in my industry. So, I'm not disappointed. I will do my best to make this production good. I'll make everybody happy and I'll make this production the special one. =)

Anyway, back to my bad day. I got on the train cause I got no car. So, I need to take public transport to my performance space. GREAT! I waited for the freaking train for 20minutes. It's so crazy. Luckily, I left the house early. I had a little argument with my mom because of the car. As usual.

So, I hopped into the train. The train was filled with people. Many many people. I was like tuna fish in the tin. So crammed. So packed. Worse still, the train's air conditional wasn't working. I can't stand heat. I felt like fainting, standing in the crowd, smelling all kinds of different weird, odour. I seriously need a car. A small one would do. I pray every night. I need a car. I need a car. It's essential.

Everything after that just felt off place. I hurt my back hitting on the edge of the wall. And worse still, I've borrowed the church piano. Now, the cable is gone. I need to make so many phone calls now. Hopefully, the cable is in the other bag. I'm really being very hopeful.

Argh!!!! What a day!!! Sometimes, I just don't feel like living anymore. I'm so tired with everything. My heart is faint. My heart cannot take many things at one time. I just want to let go of everything. Everything. Just everything.

I'm just going to chill right now. Watch some movies then sleep off. I don't want to think of anything.

My life is a drama!!!!

Semper Fedelis

JayTee

Episode 4- How do I breathe?

2009-03-08T00:32:00.003+08:00

Every night, it's a struggle for Sam. He hates listening to the sound of music because it just saddens his heart. But, he still listens. He feels for many heart breaking songs.

It's hard for Sam to breathe every day. It's hard for Sam to move on in his life when he couldn't let go of his feelings for Giselle.

Giselle is someone so special. So unique. Sam never treated anyone so real before in his life. He wants to show more but it's a little too late. He would want to turn back time to change things. Giselle is the one and only girl that he will ever loved. He used to have a girl before Giselle. But, it's a whole different relationship. Sam knows that he loves Giselle like nobody's business. He never have such feelings before.

He said that this would be his last relationship. He would not fall for anyone anymore. He is now heartless. He would rather stay heartless. He doesn't want any other girls anymore. All he has right now is nothing. But, it doesn't really matter. All he ever wants is to see Giselle, happy with her life, enjoying everything to the fullest.

Sam will continue to look at her from afar. He will continue to pray for the best for her future and make sure she is always alright. Sam promised her to be her guardian angel. It does not matter if Giselle doesn't care. Sam will continue to love her in the dark and during the day. Every moment. Every single day. Every hour, every minute, every second.

Right now, Sam is listening to his Ipod. Repeating this song, How Do I Breathe by Mario Barrett.

How do i breathe

How do i breathe?

It feels so different being here,

I was so used to being next to you,

Life for me is not the same,

There's no one to turn to.

I Don't know why I let it go too far,

Starting over it's so hard.

Seems like everywhere I try to go,

I keep thinking of you.

I just had a wake up call,

Wishing that I never let you fall,

Baby you are not blame at all.

Remember when I pushed you away?

Baby, if you knew I cared,

You'd have never went nowhere,

Girl I should've been right there.

How Do I Breathe,

Without you here by my side?

How will I see,

When your love brought me to the light?

Where do I go,

When your heart's where I lay my head?

When you're not with me,

How Do i Breathe?

How Do I breathe?

Girl, I'm losing my mind.

Yes I made a mistake.

I thought that you would be mine.

Guess the joke was on me.

I miss you so bad I can't sleep.

I wish I knew where you could be.

Another dude is replacing me,

But this can't be happening.

I can't get over you

Baby I don't wanna let go.

Girl, you need to come home,

Back to me,

Cause girl, You made it hard to breathe,

When you're not with me.

Sam is crying again. His heart has been bleeding since he left Giselle. He feels so lost. He doesn't know what to do. Every time he sees Giselle with the other guy, his heart crushed into a million pieces. But, he will continue to be strong. Every time he falls, he will pick himself up and continue to love Giselle with all his heart.

Sam will not leave Giselle. He will never leave her. Like a parasite, he will stick to her. He will be in her blood.

Semper Fedelis

JayTee

A good villian

2009-03-06T00:07:00.004+08:00

I'm a walking zombie.

I have no rest.

I haunt the living.

I come to take everything away.

Do not worry. I'm not evil.I'm good at heart.

A friendly zombie.

I might be a zombie. Ugly. Unattractive. Stink.

But,

Throughout your tough times, I'll walk you through.

I'll be there for you.

I'll be sure that you are safe. I can always sacrifice my rest.

I haunt those who harm you in the light.

I come to take all your fears and sorrows away.

I'll be a werewolf. The lone ranger. The long awaiting one.

Waiting for the day you come back.

Through the darkest time, I'll be your eyes to guide you through.

With my slashes, no one will touch a single hair of yours.

From afar, I'll look after you.

I call your name every night before I lay my eyes.

I think of you every single breathe that I take.

I won't have a heart for my heart has been given away to you.

I trust that you will take good care of it.

Semper Fedelis
JayTee

I crave for FREEDOM!!!

2009-03-03T20:15:00.005+08:00

I need to get out of this place

I need to get out of this town

I need to get out of from my house

I need to breathe something new

I need to breathe something fresh

I need a new place to live in

Just me and my dog

I wants an electric guitar

A brand new one

I want a big big bed

Then I can roll anywhere and jump around

Weee!!!!

I need a car

My own car

I want my freedom

That's all I need

I'm reaching 20 soon and my parents treat me like a kid.

At times. Yes! I love to be a kid. Just enjoy being pampered by my folks.

But, I'm graduating soon. I'm old enough to take care of myself and choices that I make.

I'll swallow those consequences.

I want freedom. I want to drive in my own junk! I want my own junk!!!!

I know this world is rotten, is bad. Shit happens. But I know how to take care of myself.

Ish! Where's my freedom? When can I take the car and roam around with my friends?

Semper Fedelis

JayTee

Episode 3- Shy Sam

2009-03-03T18:45:00.004+08:00

Let's get one thing straight. Sam is a shy boy. A really shy one when he is new to the surroundings. He acts like a mouse and reacts like one too. Nobody knows his presence because he is too quiet. In his early semester, he got not much friends. He just goes to class, attends them and scram, you won't see him hanging around with people, his fellow mates. He is a secretive person. He keeps things to himself and he is really good at hiding his true feelings, his true colours. Well, that's just the beginning of semester. As the semester goes by, he slowly opens up, slowly crawling out from his comfort zone. He is different. From a quiet boy, he is now loud. People take notice of him. He has plenty of friends now. Not that shy anymore, he can be little crazy if you know him well. He laughs and does crazy things. Still, he is good at heart. His motto will always be putting himself last and treat other people really well, no matter what happens. Nevertheless, he has his secrets just like anybody. He has crushes all the time just like any horny guys. He has his dreams and fantasies just like any human being on this planet.

Sam likes going to college. He likes being around with his friends and lecturers. He hangs out with them during lunch time and doing all sorts of crazy things with them. He is an average student when it comes to studies. He loves what he is doing and enjoys every moment. If people treated him badly, he wouldn't keep it in his heart. He would let it go and forgive them though, sometimes, he is still a human being. He gets a little upset but he knows how to manage his emotions. One thing not so good about him, he keeps too many things to himself and he is unwilling to share.

Sam has always had a huge crush on Giselle. She doesn't know that cause Sam is too good in hiding his feelings. Sam always looks at Giselle from across the room and he would chuckles away. People thinks he is crazy. At moments, Sam would just think about Giselle and what she would possibly do at that hour of the day. Sam would smile all day long when Giselle says hi to him. Whenever Giselle looks at him, he would blush and turn away. Sometimes, Sam wonders whether that's true love or is it just another crush. Due to Sam's shyness, he has no guts to approach Giselle and pours out his feelings towards her. He's too afraid. He thinks too much. He thinks Giselle would reject him.

God was with him. He has an big opportunity. Towards his last semester, he was in the same group with Giselle. Sam is speechless. His heart pumps so fast, it could not stop. He doesn't know what to do. All he ever wants was cherish every single breathe that he takes and staying close to her at all times. He never give a thought that Giselle would have some feelings for him too. He doesn't believe that a girl would have feelings for him because he always gives himself a very low score when it comes to the female speicies.

It is real. Giselle had feelings for Sam too. Something Sam would never dream of. He couldn't accept that fact for a moment in time. His heartbeat stops that very moment when he realized that Giselle had something for him.

Well, things change. Lots of happenings. During that semester, they became so close. There were something going on between them. Definately more than friends. People noticed. Most of them disagree of their relationship. Sam's close buddies approached him and told him off.

But, who cares. Sam doesn't care. All he know is, he loves Giselle. He just wants to be with her. And now, he is with her. So, who cares. He doesn't care about what people thinks about him. He is happy. Maybe, this is his happiest moment in college. In life.

Semper Fedelis

JayTee

Parents and children

2009-03-02T22:38:00.003+08:00

Have you ever thought of...

Waking up in the morning and realize that your parents are no longer around?

That you are an orphan?

Then only will you wake up from that illusion of hating or disliking them. Maybe. I don't know. Maybe you had a big fight with your mom or your dad, and that grudge stays in you like forever.

Just to make things clear, I did not have any fight with my parents today or the past few days but I had a dream. A horrible dream. It haunted me throughout the whole day. It was freaky. This was my dream.

I woke up that morning. I realized I was wearing all black, the house was so messed up. I heard people crying from the hall. Suddenly, few of my friends came into my room and ask me how was I feeling. I did not answer them. I slowly walked down the stairs and I saw 2 coffins. I saw relatives and church friends. Pastor came to approach me and everybody looks weird. I'm feeling a little uneasy. I'm not sure what was happening. I dare not look inside the coffins. Then, pastor told me my parents had gone with the Lord. I passed out. Blank. The next moment when I wake up. My room was dark, in fact, the whole house was filled with darkness. I can hardly see my fingers. I cried out. "Dad! Mom!" Nobody answered me. I ran to my parents' room. The bed was empty. I opened the closet. There were nothing. All gone. I dropped down. Speechless. I did not know what to do. I felt so empty suddenly. Lost. Goner.

So, that was my dream. Not that dramatic, but still, my parents, "PUFF" just like that, they are gone. IF it was real, I think I'll go crazy. Insane. I don't think i can live without them. I mean they are the source of everything. They take care of me since I'm in my mother's womb. They show love and care through out my tough and rough times.

Life isn't a bed of roses. At times, you will unloved. you feel as if life is nothing. Meaningless. You are always in search of something to do, to excite you, to make you feel great. I might not know the feeling of being a kid with divorced parents. But, I do know that no matter what, your parents in one way or another, they still love their children. They show their love differently. Sometimes, you may not realize but that's how they love you.

I also believe that someone from afar, above, has always been there, right outside your heart, waiting for you to open the door to let Him in. I can assure you things will change. Not getting worse but better. You just need a little faith. I'm not being religious here. I'm just saying, this power is real. This something is really something. =)

"Oh taste and see this sweet cuddly presence. You can never have something so special in your life."

Also back to my parents. I'll continue to be the best kid that they will ever have. I'll do my best to please them and obey their commands. I will continue to love them and will not disappoint them. I want to be their no.1 kid. =) I don't want to break their hearts anymore.

Semper Fedelis

JayTee

Thanks Bennie

2009-03-02T11:07:00.002+08:00

Jac Jac Benita

A little crazy. Some "fashion sense". =PPP

Just want to credit her for helping me out in this blog thingy. =)

She did the design and layout and stuff. =)

You rock the house!

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JayTee